God is most careful with you…

God is most careful with you…

God is most careful with you…

I can’t stand it.

Years wasted… bemoaning… I wasn’t enough.  I wasn’t adored.  I could never measure up to what was expected. 

You can’t talk me out of it… I won’t succumb to the lie, “You must work harder to please Him.”

I want what He wants.

I want what He came and died for… a new mind.  A new way of thinking, living, and believing.

Call me what you will.  Call it a fantasy… wishful thinking… a fairytale.

Okay.

You can’t sell me what you’re pitching, because… I know me.




I cannot magically manifest the love, peace, joy, or any of the other things that flow from me since I heard the REAL GOOD NEWS. Believe me, I tried.

This Monday morning, my oldest son will be sworn in to United States Marine Bootcamp.  I will watch as he boards a bus, headed to the airport, on the other side of the country, for three months.  And I cannot scheme the level of joy I have in knowing, this boy, this man-baby, walks in the favor of the Lord.

He may walk through the valley of the shadow of death… but he will do so with a Jesus that “is most careful with him.”

He is most careful with him.

He is most careful with me.

He is most careful with you.

I needn’t fake it until I make it… I needn’t mask my concerns or worries. My grief, the dread I feel knowing the depth of our son’s absence is not a lack of faith. I used to believe sadness marked me as shallow and less than; that JOY was the gift of laughter and sanctimonious peace. I was burdened by guilt when I didn’t feel this way… believing I must try harder.

No.

Grief is a legitimate emotion, the product of loss and a ceremony worthy of a beloved relationship that is changing, ending, or moving onto an eternity.

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Grief is a gift – a product of love. The blessing now, is falling into the arms of a loving and flawless Father whose love, perfected, casts out all fears.

I will cry.

I will miss him.

I will pray, grieve, and eagerly await that first letter.

But I will not doubt my Creator.  And my peace and joy come from knowing… He is most careful with me.

May your floors be sticky and your man-babies be safe and well. Love, Jami

“So be content with who you are, and don’t put on airs. God’s strong hand is on you; He’ll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; He is most careful with you.”  1 Peter 5:7 (Msg.)

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11 Comments

  1. Julie Richmond on March 20, 2017 at 9:14 am

    Prayers for all of you in this new season! The hardest part is not having contact with each other. Praying for a strong body of believers to come along side of him in encouragement and comfort and for good health because their bodies are pushed to their limits in boot camp.
    Love you friend!

  2. Amber on March 20, 2017 at 9:15 am

    Thank God for being so careful with us! There have been moments where I have been more breakable than China! He is such a good good father! <3

  3. Glenna McKelvie on March 20, 2017 at 9:45 am

    Looking back, as the wife of a sailor, I was such a brat! (Very young–and unfaithful)

  4. Deborah on March 20, 2017 at 11:07 am

    I used to believe sadness marked me as shallow and less than…..
    On my way to the “used to” part of that It’s a road not traveled alone because He is so very careful with me…yes❣Amen….
    Holding you all in prayer during all these transitions…

  5. Kimberly Goodemote on March 20, 2017 at 12:55 pm

    That was just what I needed to hear. Thank you for being the Lord’s vessel. May God bless you and your family <3

  6. Karen on March 20, 2017 at 1:07 pm

    I have Jonathan in the army and Mark in the Navy (currently on a submarine!) Love your blog.

  7. Rebecca on March 20, 2017 at 2:33 pm

    My daughter Haley is in Combat Cam in the USAF. Appreciate the prayers!

  8. Linda on March 20, 2017 at 5:50 pm

    My son Ryan serves in the US Navy.

  9. Maureen on May 27, 2017 at 8:13 am

    Sending hus to you, Jami. My nephew Ron is a Marine. Thank you to all who serve to protect us. xoxo

  10. Angela Brandt on May 27, 2017 at 11:00 am

    Patrick is in the Navy

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