I am In Love with Another Woman 5

I am In Love with Another Woman

This will probably not reach the masses.

I don’t care.

If my words fall upon the heart of one… I have succeeded.

I just left a house with broken spirits. Addicted spirits. Fighting spirits. Spirits… Who have given up on their life, their old life.

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Among those spirits is a young woman – whom I love. 


I want her to succeed. I want her whole. I want her to be more than she even can fathom. I want her to boldly walk from my life… And take her child with her.

I want the heartache of that loss.

Because I love her.

If this moment is what it is like to love with the eyes of Jesus let me never forget.

She is Eve in her folly.

She is Ruth in her commitment

She is Naomi is her search for home.

Rachael in her faith.

Elizabeth in her doubt.

Mary in her hope.

Mary Magdalene in her brokenness, and her redemption.

The woman at the well in her new day.

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And me… But by the grace of God, and simply because of God.

If for a moment you considered your place in the foster care system, stop and think again. Yes. It is for the babies. Yes. It is for the helpless victims. And YES! It could be that the least of these are the PARENTS of children in foster care. What if… It isn’t about your attachment to a child… But rather your attachment to that child’s momma & daddy? And what if you were the cheerleader those parents needed more than anything in the world?


Brothers and sisters… A new dawn approaches.  The dawn of dying to self & reconsidering the least of these. We are so quick to assume, so quick to judge.  Who are the least of these?

I am.

You are.

The least of these are all of those children of God in need.

Misunderstood, lost, addicted, struggling, hungry, tired… Broken.

Tonight, I cannot sleep. I saw something in a quick and sobering moment – something I asked God to show me. I will never be the same. I will write about this again. I will ask you again. I won’t nag you. I won’t pretend it is easy… or that you won’t get hurt. I cannot promise you will be in a situation with parents committed to change… but, what if you were? What if He who saves will use you to deliver a child back into his family’s arms? Or use you as a bridge to a whole new level of acceptance – a whole new generation of change?

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It is Foster Care Awareness Month. Just for a moment…

Reconsider foster care. Fall in love fearlessly. 

May your floors be sticky and your calling ordained. Love, Jami

“Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.” 1 Corinthians 13:8

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  1. Terry K. on May 6, 2016 at 7:49 am

    I have been a foster mom since 2004. My first foster child came to be as a young teen and is now married with two young sons of her own. Her relationship with her own mother is precarious at best, but she has a wonderful mother-in-law and she stays close to my family. She is the BEST mom. I marvel at her maternal abilities and the tenderness of care her little boys receive. She is currently studying to become a midwife, something about which she is incredibly passionate. Successful reunification with birth family is a matter of hard work, and seems to be the exception rather than the rule sometimes, but a teenager who ages out of the system after spending the majority of her childhood in foster care, and builds a solid, loving and productive life is a success too. Heather did almost ALL of the work in her success story, but I like to hope I had a little bit of influence. I am SO proud of her. I would echo your words, Jami. Please, please, please consider foster care. It is one of the hardest jobs you can ever love.

    • jami_amerine on May 6, 2016 at 7:56 am

      Thank you Terry. We need more great stories! There are some! Congratulations to your girl. ❤️

  2. Glenna McKelvie on May 6, 2016 at 10:02 am

    Bravo…I have seen success and I have seen failures. In this life there will be tribulation. That isn’t a threat it’s promise. It is how we grow and how we fall to our knees. It is how we lose arrogance and become real. Love

  3. Melanie on May 6, 2016 at 1:47 pm

    The hurt, the lost, the broken… it is the cry of my heart, and you have said it ever so eloquently. If we could just see as God sees His lost and broken children – if we were only willing to get dirty in the process… thank you, Jami. Thank you for being willing to love, and lose, and ache, and weep, for the sake of rescuing those He came to rescue. I love when I read something and hear God Himself. <3

    • jami_amerine on May 6, 2016 at 1:50 pm

      Thank you Melanie. Heading over to visit your blog. Love the name. ❤️

  4. Donna Martin Warren on May 17, 2016 at 6:20 pm

    It can be so hard to help others see the brokenness and vulnerability of these parents. You expressed it so beautifully. Thank you.

    • jami_amerine on May 17, 2016 at 6:21 pm

      Thank you Donna. ❤️

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