World's Bestest Mom

World’s Bestest Mom

I wish I was a better mother.  Truly. I don’t say this so you’ll say…”Oh, you’re so great.”

In so many ways I am just not that grand.

For starters, I am a yeller. (7)

One time, in a counseling session (whatever if you don’t go to counseling bravo for you and yours) a kid said, “I wish you wouldn’t yell so much and I proceeded to yell, “I wish you would flush a toilet and turn off a light!” In the midst of slinging snot and heaving real tears.

One of my finer moments, which I feel confident is in a file somewhere marked “states evidence.”

I want to do well, but I am tired, and fatigue seems to rule the roost in this house.

At my best, I am usually getting lots of aerobic activity.

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When I taught spin, I was happier, and I certainly looked better.  And I was going back to spin this morning, my gym bag is even packed and in the car. However, after being up all night yelling at toddlers to get back in bed… I couldn’t face it this morning.

So instead of spinning, I yelled all morning.

Hot mess doesn’t accurately convey.

In other ways I know I am a pretty good mom, but I wonder what the children will remember about me.  Probably that I yell, “I’ll kick your lung out!” at them. Which, I assume they think is funny… Right?

And we work closely with Child Welfare, so I know I could be worse, but I don’t want to settle for not being better at that which I believe is my ordained vocation.  The pay is lousy, but the benefits are boundless.  I would like to think I am not a horrible mom.

Yet, I know I could be better.  And I want to be better.  When Maggie was a baby she never ever got sick.  Granted, it wasn’t until she was about three that I realized the stopper in her sippy cup needed removed and periodically cleaned. Thus, she was getting a hearty dose of homemade penicillin every time I gave her a cup of juice. (8)

So, what I suspected was excellent germ-free parenting turned out to actually be a mouthful of blue mold with some toxic level of health benefits.  And then, as soon as I started cleaning the sludge out of the lid she started getting sick all the time.

In a cruel twist, the bad parenting had mimicked good parenting.


Then when I remedied the bad parenting it morphed into worse parenting… and I had a sick kid.  Round and round I go.  Messing up, and wishing I could do better.  

Guilt is the name of the game in parenting. Too much candy I feel guilty. Forgetting to put a cookie in their lunch… guilty.  And then there are regrets for things I wish I had done with the older batch that I do with the younger batch. And stuff I don’t do for the younger batch I did for the older batch… and I feel sorry and I want to be better.



When the older kids were little we told them things like, “we don’t say butt.” And we never said, “shut up.” It was banned. At the park  the other day with the babies, one of them threw a toy and the other one yelled, “Damn it!” And the new, young mommies scattered like we were wearing “SEX PREDATOR” t-shirts.


And I can’t blame them. I am left to question how greatly I have lowered my parenting standards. (6)

I pour out the same prayer for the better part of twenty years, “Help me be better.” Next thing I know I am in the emergency room with a disgruntled teen who drank chocolate milk out of an antique bottle he purchased at Good Will for a quarter. And I find myself yelling, “I told you it wasn’t a suitable beverage container!” All the while lovingly changing his bedpan and waiting for his IV fluids to restore him.


Knowing full well, it wasn’t any different than the noxious gravy Maggie drank when I didn’t rinse the sippy cup stoppers all those years ago.

Perhaps this is literally my best? An unequal measure of me just trying my darndest and praying that God will cover that which I barely maintain.

-God, help me be better.-

In the meantime, my gym bag is packed and ready for tomorrow in hopes I will sleep and be ready to go to spin class. And if all else fails, my prayer journal is ready, waiting for me to write in it one thousand times over… “God, help me be better.”

May your floors be sticky and your calling ordained.  Love, Jami

“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10



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  1. ThatOrganicMom on April 6, 2016 at 7:14 am

    If it makes you feel any better, early in my parenting I added the old grape juice into the new grape juice bottle… little did I know I was fermenting wine… one day my best friend took a sip of it and was like WHOA… I tasted it and I was like WOW, that’s when I learned how to make wine…. no, no, that’s not it, I mean, that’s when I learned not to mix the old juice with the new 😉

    • jami_amerine on April 6, 2016 at 7:15 am


  2. Glenna McKelvie on April 6, 2016 at 9:05 am

    Because I was sort of “un-mothered” I wanted to be the perfect Mom. I consistently failed, but learned this prayer: ” Lord fill in the gaps wherevI am absent. Smooth over the rough patches, where I make mistakes. When I can’t be there, send angels. Correct my mistakes with your grace!” I sometimes doubted that the prayer was enough but it must have been because (by the grace of God) my grown children are fabulous people!

  3. Terry K. on April 6, 2016 at 9:24 am

    Oh, Jami! You SO validate me. My thirtysomethings stare at me like I’ve grown another head when I look their eight-year-brother in the eye and say Please. Just. Stop. Talking. But then roll their eyes when the little kids get electric scooters for Easter. “Hey, that’s just like the one I never got! ” Parenting is definitely not a job for sissies.

    • jami_amerine on April 6, 2016 at 9:35 am


  4. Shelly Cole on April 8, 2016 at 2:55 pm

    At least you were WILLING To go thru counselling with your child/children. That says a lot right there all by itself. No, you are NOT A BAD MOM….infact, you are a fantastic Mom. Just willing to get help with your children SHOW an unselfish nature and shows that you want the very best for them, even if it hurts your emotions and pride to get thru. I congratulate you for going to counselling. Wow, great Article written by a Great Mommy 🙂

  5. A. Stewart on April 18, 2016 at 4:19 am

    Thank you for this. I am a struggling mother of 5 small children (2 girls, 3 boys). I worry about what my children will remember me for…that I loved the Lord, that I loved them, or that I yelled all the time? My husband and I were not yellers before having children. I have turned into this crazy person and I am at a loss for knowing how to get out of this cycle. It is so comforting to know that I am not alone in this struggle. I have used my weaknesses to teach my children by example that we all need forgiveness, we all screw up, but we are a family who loves each other, loves the Lord, and forgives.

    • jami_amerine on April 18, 2016 at 4:28 am

      Oh sweet momma. Praying for you. ❤️

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  7. Kelsey Sauter on October 19, 2018 at 2:15 pm

    I just found this today. I have tears rolling down my face from laughing so hard. I love this and thank you for writing this!

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